It almost causes panic attacks. They happen often and they always scare me. Which makes me wonder. What if some of the people Ive met were just hallucinations? I saw something move in the mirror yesterday. It was next to me, but i couldnt make out a figure it was quick. But tonight I saw a skeleton, it was still rotting. It had strands of hair and thin paper skin. I saw it for a good ten seconds. In that time I even did a double take. Then I looked again and nothing. My heart it pounding. The hallucinations arent just dead things at home. One time I saw a man walking with a red jacket and black pants into the street. My mom was driving and I saw him walk into the street. I blinked then turned my head quickly and there was no one there. At school I see people at thw front of the class that would just fade away. Or theyre just like shadow figures. Trust me Im not making this stuff up. Now Im getting auditory hallutionations. Hearing whispers that wake me up or when Im about to fall asleep or just a whole group of voices in my head. Then there are the moments when I feel like there are loud static sounds in my head. They make me jump and are about three to five seconds apart. Then the last of the sounds are the constant “save me” “help us” repeating in anything.
~I just need to calm myself down. Thanks for reading. Youre awesome. Goodnight. Peace and love. Bye
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Who Are You? And Why Are You Here?
I hear whispers in my head waking me up in the middle of the night. I hear screaming in headphones and speakers of anything around me. I hear the echos “where am i? Save me!” I try to hide it, but I flinch when the warning static sounds in my head. Who is talking to me? Is there anybody there? Or am I just going insane? I have the urge to scream as if Im scared by something, but what is scaring me. Is it deep within? I need answers and what these voices are saying, I won’t be getting help anytime soon. What is this? What am I hearing? Why am I asking anyone? Half of me says Im crazy and the other half says theres nothing wrong. Why?
The Me Behind The Screen 