I Think I Like You… But I’m not sure…

I got over this one guy from before finally!!! He was such a nice kid, just not as nice as I thought. My poor judgement on a thing he did and ruined our friendship. Well I dont really know if I got over him. Im just praying to forget. I want to forget his name, but I end up meeting around ten other guys with the same name. This guy I know is really cool, and he knows about the other guy, but not much. And my friend likes playing video games, and has a good taste in movies. I cant have a crush on him, but I have a mind crush (meaning I like him but more than a friend less than a crush). I just cant like anyone right now till I get my mind straight. This is because I dont want to ruin another friendship. Anyways
Thats all. Good night. Peace and Love.

Who Are You? And Why Are You Here?

I hear whispers in my head waking me up in the middle of the night. I hear screaming in headphones and speakers of anything around me. I hear the echos “where am i? Save me!” I try to hide it, but I flinch when the warning static sounds in my head. Who is talking to me? Is there anybody there? Or am I just going insane? I have the urge to scream as if Im scared by something, but what is scaring me. Is it deep within? I need answers and what these voices are saying, I won’t be getting help anytime soon. What is this? What am I hearing? Why am I asking anyone? Half of me says Im crazy and the other half says theres nothing wrong. Why?

Birthday! And Lots of Questions

I just turned 15 and I have been asked these 10 questions the most whether by school “chums”, former classmate, friends (irl or online), and teachers. So I guess I’ll answer them here:

  1. What’s you’re real first name?- My irl first name is Tiffany, but online you can call me Thea.
  2. Are you in a relationship with anyone?- No, I am currently not in a relationship, Well I’m pretty sure I’m not.
  3. Have you ever been in a relationship?- No I have never been in a relationship. Ever. For 15 years.
  4. What’s your nationality?- Well, I was born in Florida. My dad’s side is Ukrainian, Polish, and Russian. My mum’s side is Vietnamese and Chinese.
  5. Hobbies?- Yes, I love playing video games, writing, art, and archery.
  6. Crush on anyone?- Not really no… I have no idea anymore!! >////<
  7. Are you in a band? and if not what would you want to be called?- No, and that’s easy! “Red Tide” would be the name of the band, well if the others like it.
  8. What are you most uncomfortable with your body?- Um… Almost like every girl my weight. The scars on my cheeks, the scar on my leg. But hey, that’s what make me different from everyone else!
  9. Do you wear make up?- No! I have only worn make up to my dance performances, because you had to with the lighting we had. Other than that I actually believe that wearing full-on make up all day everyday is basically you lying to the entire world about what you look like. Most girls now a days can’t leave home without makeup because they’re afraid that people with think they’re ugly. I don’t care if a guy thinks I’m ugly because that means he only likes a girl for their looks and not personality.

And finally:

10. How did you come up with the name TheaHowling?- Well I basically had “The Howling” by Within Temptation stuck in my head for like a month or two and I really love that song, so I wanted to incorporate it into a username so I wanted a girls name to be in it(obviously because I’m a girl) so people could say things like,”hey Thea”.

Well that’s all for today/tomorrow unless I come up with anything else.

~Bye! ❤