My thoughts

Um… I dont know how to put this, so Im just going to say things.

I dont have feeligs for this guy, and I honestly know that I DO NOT have any romantic feelings towards him, but every time he doesnt talk to me, I get all sad and lonely. I dont understand… I wish I wasnt like this.
When it comes to online friendships, I want to talk to no end even during school I would love to text them. But if it’s an irl person, I cant manage the courage to speak. Also whenever Im about to send a text I have a mini anxiety attack. Oh, I wish I wasnt like this. When I was little, I used to be so outgoing and always talked to my friends or schoolmates I didnt really know, but now, I cant even talk to my class mates without almost panicking. I dont know what point in my life made me become this. I dont like it. I HATE IT. It keeps me from makig friends, doing work, helping people. I just want to be outgoing again. I used to love how I looked, but after years society has told me otherwise. I dont listen to what society thinks, but sometimes it just gets to me…